Existential Angst

Alienation

Spiritual Vacuum

Inner Famine

Anomie

The Great Sickness of Modern Man

Soul Hole

Crisis of Meaning

Whatever the label, it speaks of disconnection and yearns for something to fill the postmodern void.

We oblige too willingly and pour in

Fast Food

The internet

Spectator sports

Quick religion

And consumerism.

We're medicated to keep our minds glazed and distracted from the side-effects of progress.

Psychotropics slide down our Evian-coated throats.

Paxil,Zoloft and prozac.

They sound more like planets than pills.

The occasional war is offered up against the enemy-of-the-day,

 in order to bring us into formation,

to ensure that our questions remain short and shallow.

But...despite all this something ignites the Zapatista rebel demanding autonomy

the Palestinian suicide bomber resisting occupation

the Earth First activist serving her six years sentence

and the 67 year old maryknoll nun who blocks the logging road.

Our pets arrive at Doggy Daycare wearing sweaters and mittens as city dwellers reside in moving creates and storage boxes.

Global Warming

Fast Food

Child Labor

Homelessness

They all thrive on our inability...no, our refusal to connect.

by----VICTOR-----

Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: zox

WOW i did not know how happy i would be just visiting plymouth. but wow i was so happy to go up their and see all of the people who are truly special i can not wait until january, it made me feel so alive again (i'm sure you have no idea) but it did.  i want to be their every chance i get which will be the same chance every week due to my well planned schedule. OMG i love plymouth so much. I am still a little unsure as to what programs i want to be involved in  (ALSO, PSU VOLUNTEERS, STUDENT SENATE,PACE) so many to choose from. well their is plenty of time i guess to decide........... that is all for today

love you all bye

Well yes if anyone wondered i am still alive and working. still wasting away @radioshack and now along with the job @the holiday inn express and taking classes @hesser i have had no time for this LiveJournal only important things are Andrew, Some friends, So charitable good service and thats pretty much it. this has been such a crazy hectic summer however the light at the end of the tunnel is now in sight because in just 6 months i will be in plymouth full time for the next four years of my life and that is what all this hard work and lack of sleep is for that one final goal.  yes to be in school with all of the great people i have met over the past few months up at school where i do not have to work two jobs where everyone i love is a brisk walk away where thier is no curfew where i belong...........this is why i work to enjoy life up ahead..........

journal entry

1. Carley Simons- reflections
2. Teena Marie, La Dona
3. Black Eyed Peas, Elephunk
4. Evanescence, Fallen
5. Soundtrack, Shrek 2
6. Kill Bill 2, soundtrack
7. coldplay-
8. bennie babies
9. stuffed animals
10. clothes
11. gift certificates to music stores
12. gift certificates to clothing stores
13. home made gifts
14. cards
15. legos
16. action figures
17. movies
18. barns and noble gift certificates
19. books
20. jewelry (the cheap, ae, hemp,non exspensive kind
21. board games
22. boxers (lg)
23. house/apt decorations
24. love
25. honesty
26. cuddling
27. undivided attention
28. conversation
29. quality time
30. andrew

HELLO YAL, it's been a long time i should not have left with out some of my fun thoughts. i'm sorry.well a lot of stuff has happened since i last updated. so here it is in speed.(26 days)

1. andrew is wonderful
2. school is out (yeah)
3. bill is back in town
4. bill works for me
5. we all went to 313
6. matt has a boyfriend
7. i met up with my old debate coach
8. teachers at my old school love and remember me
9. went to my first glbt event
10. drove with amanda
11. saw my first movie with andrew
12. it was shrek
13. almost ran out of oil in my car
14. met with david mcbride @psu
15. david mcbride called
16. will be signing up for 2 classes @snhu
17. for free because radioshack pays
18. will be at plymouth full time in january
19. hung out with amanda and drove around went to the mall
20. got together with the gang (*matt,matt,morgan,diana,brian,erik,jen) @applebee's
21. fooled around in a parking lot
22. lost weight
23. joined the gym
24. decided i will step down from my position @ radioshack
25. changed cell phones
26. and finally updated my journal

its been fun!

Why the hell does it matter what your last name is?

Who cares if your last name is not the one of either your mother or father?

Why would this bother someone so much?

Why should this bother your own brother?

Who cares if we don't share the same father but yet share the last name?

It bothers me that it bothers others.

I will be changing my name just to satisfy the ridiculous chaos this is causing, because i know how deadly a single name can be to ones life.

well since i have to change the last name  i think i will change my first name too and NO it will NOT be ZION that is just for fun. now not to say it will not be my middle name but it will  NOT be the first.

Well anyway this is what has started my day today. But i'm still in a good mood just a little...........well you can see the bear.

Adios Amigos

Current Mood: irritated
Current Music: THE ONLY VH1

well i have not updated in a while i have kinda forgotten for a moment in time that i had a live journal. 

FRIDAY

 i go back from Texas on friday night, after a long 5 day session of waking at 5am and going to sleep @12-1am well i got home around 1030pm and took a shower and went strait to plymouth to see my boy, we went to bed around 2ish.

SATURDAY

went home around 9am and when i got home i took a shower gathered my laundry and went off to work where i did laundry and worked until 8pm where then i was traveling to porstmouth to amandas house for a fun night stayed up for a while

SUNDAY

woke up the next morning and had a great breakfast made by the most beautiful women in plymouth and then showered and lounged around took a nap and went to work around 2ish worked until 5pm then went to daves house watched a cartoon the we went  to barns and noble then to matts house then off to applebees then drove them both home and i went home only to find a lak in my closet were my bed was. spent two and a half hours re arranging my apt to fit my bed else where (i love how it looks now) well now its 1am went to bed

MONDAY

woke up at 7am worked from 830am-8pm then went to the gym with matt got home at 11pm  cleaned a little and watched a little bit of cabin fever fell a sleep

TUESDAY

woke at 7am and now i am at work well that s the last two weeks of my life   IM TIRED.

Current Mood: sore
Current Music: VH1