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2004-08-24T16:11:12Z

Existential Angst

Alienation

Spiritual Vacuum

Inner Famine

Anomie

The Great Sickness of Modern Man

Soul Hole

Crisis of Meaning

Whatever the label, it speaks of disconnection and yearns for something to fill the postmodern void.

We oblige too willingly and pour in

Fast Food

The internet

Spectator sports

Quick religion

And consumerism.

We're medicated to keep our minds glazed and distracted from the side-effects of progress.

Psychotropics slide down our Evian-coated throats.

Paxil,Zoloft and prozac.

They sound more like planets than pills.

The occasional war is offered up against the enemy-of-the-day,

in order to bring us into formation,

to ensure that our questions remain short and shallow.

But...despite all this something ignites the Zapatista rebel demanding autonomy

the Palestinian suicide bomber resisting occupation

the Earth First activist serving her six years sentence

and the 67 year old maryknoll nun who blocks the logging road.

Our pets arrive at Doggy Daycare wearing sweaters and mittens as city dwellers reside in moving creates and storage boxes.

Global Warming

Fast Food

Child Labor

Homelessness

They all thrive on our inability...no, our refusal to connect.

by----VICTOR-----

what

2004-08-23T18:14:11Z

QUESTION: What is so great about a job that you hate being at?

ANSWER: You can count down the weeks until you do not have to work their anymore

PLYMOUTH ROCKS

2004-08-23T14:50:00Z

WOW i did not know how happy i would be just visiting plymouth. but wow i was so happy to go up their and see all of the people who are truly special i can not wait until january, it made me feel so alive again (i'm sure you have no idea) but it did. i want to be their every chance i get which will be the same chance every week due to my well planned schedule. OMG i love plymouth so much. I am still a little unsure as to what programs i want to be involved in (ALSO, PSU VOLUNTEERS, STUDENT SENATE,PACE) so many to choose from. well their is plenty of time i guess to decide........... that is all for today

love you all bye

First time in a long time

2004-08-07T22:58:27Z

Well yes if anyone wondered i am still alive and working. still wasting away @radioshack and now along with the job @the holiday inn express and taking classes @hesser i have had no time for this LiveJournal only important things are Andrew, Some friends, So charitable good service and thats pretty much it. this has been such a crazy hectic summer however the light at the end of the tunnel is now in sight because in just 6 months i will be in plymouth full time for the next four years of my life and that is what all this hard work and lack of sleep is for that one final goal. yes to be in school with all of the great people i have met over the past few months up at school where i do not have to work two jobs where everyone i love is a brisk walk away where thier is no curfew where i belong...........this is why i work to enjoy life up ahead..........

journal entry

hello

2004-06-20T01:30:46Z

well i just had to go on record by saying is the best boyfriend in the whole world and i am so happy to be with him yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (andrew, i love what you made me)

30 hot gift list

2004-05-29T15:47:12Z

Carley Simons- reflections
Teena Marie, La Dona
Black Eyed Peas, Elephunk
Evanescence, Fallen
Soundtrack, Shrek 2
Kill Bill 2, soundtrack
coldplay-
bennie babies
stuffed animals
clothes
gift certificates to music stores
gift certificates to clothing stores
home made gifts
cards
legos
action figures
movies
barns and noble gift certificates
books
jewelry (the cheap, ae, hemp,non exspensive kind
board games
boxers (lg)
house/apt decorations
love
honesty
cuddling
undivided attention
conversation
quality time
andrew

26 day gone by

2004-05-29T14:55:08Z

HELLO YAL, it's been a long time i should not have left with out some of my fun thoughts. i'm sorry.well a lot of stuff has happened since i last updated. so here it is in speed.(26 days)

andrew is wonderful
school is out (yeah)
bill is back in town
bill works for me
we all went to 313
matt has a boyfriend
i met up with my old debate coach
teachers at my old school love and remember me
went to my first glbt event
drove with amanda
saw my first movie with andrew
it was shrek
almost ran out of oil in my car
met with david mcbride @psu
david mcbride called
will be signing up for 2 classes @snhu
for free because radioshack pays
will be at plymouth full time in january
hung out with amanda and drove around went to the mall
got together with the gang (*matt,matt,morgan,diana,brian,erik,jen) @applebee's
fooled around in a parking lot
lost weight
joined the gym
decided i will step down from my position @ radioshack
changed cell phones
and finally updated my journal

its been fun!

POLL!!!

2004-05-06T18:36:44Z

SO I AM TAKING A SUGGESTIONS ON WHAT I SHOULD CHANGE MY FIRST NAME TO.>JUST COMMENT IF YOU HAVE ANY IDEAS.

tell me your name?

2004-05-06T15:56:42Z

Why the hell does it matter what your last name is?

Who cares if your last name is not the one of either your mother or father?

Why would this bother someone so much?

Why should this bother your own brother?

Who cares if we don't share the same father but yet share the last name?

It bothers me that it bothers others.

I will be changing my name just to satisfy the ridiculous chaos this is causing, because i know how deadly a single name can be to ones life.

well since i have to change the last name i think i will change my first name too and NO it will NOT be ZION that is just for fun. now not to say it will not be my middle name but it will NOT be the first.

Well anyway this is what has started my day today. But i'm still in a good mood just a little...........well you can see the bear.

Adios Amigos

no one notices anyway

2004-05-04T13:52:31Z

well i have not updated in a while i have kinda forgotten for a moment in time that i had a live journal.

FRIDAY

i go back from Texas on friday night, after a long 5 day session of waking at 5am and going to sleep @12-1am well i got home around 1030pm and took a shower and went strait to plymouth to see my boy, we went to bed around 2ish.

SATURDAY

went home around 9am and when i got home i took a shower gathered my laundry and went off to work where i did laundry and worked until 8pm where then i was traveling to porstmouth to amandas house for a fun night stayed up for a while

SUNDAY

woke up the next morning and had a great breakfast made by the most beautiful women in plymouth and then showered and lounged around took a nap and went to work around 2ish worked until 5pm then went to daves house watched a cartoon the we went to barns and noble then to matts house then off to applebees then drove them both home and i went home only to find a lak in my closet were my bed was. spent two and a half hours re arranging my apt to fit my bed else where (i love how it looks now) well now its 1am went to bed

MONDAY

woke up at 7am worked from 830am-8pm then went to the gym with matt got home at 11pm cleaned a little and watched a little bit of cabin fever fell a sleep

TUESDAY

woke at 7am and now i am at work well that s the last two weeks of my life IM TIRED.

awesome night

2004-04-25T16:18:46Z

yeah i had an awesome night last night besides the fact that i got lost for about 10min. anyway......

I met Andrew in ???? i have no idea what town. We were at his old High School and what a play "Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dream Coat"

WOW they did an "Amazing" job i was so scared to show up because he had told me that his parents were going to be their and i always get so nervous. I really do not know why i get so nervous at the sound of the phrase "my parents will; be their". I really do not have anything to worry about i guess with time that feeling i get inside will pass and i will be more comfortable with the entire situation.

Well i got to at least meet more of his friends that do not go to plymouth we hung around for a while after the play and socialized with his Friends that were in the play.

Oh and i had very short dialog with his father i think i broke a sweat he only asked me two simple questions but it seemed as if i had commiyted a crime and now i was trying to cover up. i was so glad to see them go...

Don't anyone misunderstand the things that i say his parents are very very nice people from what i have seen. i'm just "over analyzing " the situation and really is not as bad as i think.

After that Andrew and i went to Dover (damn dover memories) and we ate at Friendly's and ate and talked.

Ilove our physical relationship but i am glad that we talk more. i love talking to people and really getting to know what makes them tick and how they think, basically i like to profile people.............I LOVE ANDREW

well for now this is all and probably for the week i'm GOING TO TEXAS tomorrow and i get back friday night.

LOVE ALL BYE

OMG

2004-04-24T13:19:29Z

JOSS STONE

OMG so amazing this album is great, and to think recorded on a whim and in only 4 days working with people like angie stone,the roots doing covers of song written by the isley brothers, artetha franklin and the white stripes

she is so great i so can not wait until her actual album comes out.

F*** Hotmail

2004-04-20T12:45:36Z

What the hell? I am trying to login to Hotmail and all it keeps doing is saying sorry "Bad URL" What the hell. So for now I can not send or receive E-mail from the computer. AHHHHHH BAAAAAAAA

no kidding!!!!!

2004-04-19T19:45:46Z

can everyone please for now on refer to me as ZION i'm totally serious.

short,simple,special

2004-04-19T15:42:23Z

Hey all i have not written a decent entry in a while sorry. This will not be a long.

i bought a bed !!! i converted my closet in to a bedroom i have pics i will see what i can do about getting them posted. it looks so so good Martha Stewart eat your heart out.. I wonder if they have found a replacement for her. mmmmmmm well anyway i have not slept on my bed, i am waiting for my boy to come by for like the night or just the afternoon so we can sleep together on it for the first time.TOGETHER...

yes and so also i have a new employee and today i am training him how fun he looks like he is 12 but he is 19. well anyway he just might work out fingers crossed.. my other employee cassi is leaving on may 4th for good. because that is when her school lets out.they think they have another full time employee for me, we will see.

i'm kinda tired and hungry i think when i get out tonight i will go home and sleep(BUT NOT IN MY BED) LOL

i need to find another job or just down grade the one i have now.

HAVE I TOLD ANYONE LATELY THAT I LOVE ANDREW ? well i do, love him, and am ever so happy that he is in my life

now you all secretly knew i would have to bring him into this entry somehow .

well for now i guess that is all.

adios amigos

ohhh how sweet

2004-04-18T16:46:16Z

Your Love Situation by Amberishjewel
Username?
Your Love Is...	Dark
During Lovemaking You Act...	Like a river, very refreshing
Your Partner Is...	Your support
Your Partner Has Said That You...	Are their best friend
Your Love is Summed Up In A Quote.	"Play is not for kids alone"

Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

this could be true

2004-04-17T18:58:35Z

What will your last words be? by cum_on_bitch
Your LJ username
Your real name
Your sex
Your age
Your last words will be...	"FUCK YOU!"

Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

i'm a bear

2004-04-14T22:37:28Z

See what Care Bear you are.

it's all a fucking lie!!!!! all who know me will concur.

63 DAYS WITH ANDREW HAVE BEEN:

2004-04-08T00:11:27Z

happy
exciting
joyful
interesting
energetic
romantic
special
fabulous
fun
adventurous
spectacular
blissful
gay
colorful
lovey-dovey
erotic
passionate
extravagant
kinky
dreamlike
silly
amusing
enjoyable
eye opening
positive
animated
entertainment
humorous
lively
laughable
beautiful
captivating
magnetic
intriguing
compelling
thought-provoking
lovable
chipper
festive
sparkling
fortunate
dreamy
carefree
optimistic
merry
cool
crazy
euphoric
jubilant
elated
intoxicating
addicting
arousing
mesmerizing
enchanting
entranced
sweet
mad
busy
infatuated
loving
affectionate
thoughtful

THESE ARE JUST SOME OF THE WORDS TO DESCRIBE OUR RELATIONSHIP>>>>>>>>>>> LOVE AND HAPPINESS IS WHAT I WOULD HAVE SETTLED FOR > HOWEVER LOOK AT WHAT I GOT........ i am so blessed.

get it togetther

2004-04-06T13:39:59Z

That is exactly what i need to do is, get it together. I always seem to have this problem i find some who i like and the closer we get i start to act really really stupid, and not the nervous ha ha stupid. it's like i try and push them away, i so do not want that to happen.i think if they have to refer to things like "when we first started dating........." their may be a problem.I think it is an insecurity i have with people inherit from when i was in school i would make friends and then we would move so i started to get used to it (i mean when you move 8 times and attend 6 different schools this is bound to happen) so i started to not make to strong of friendships because i always though that we would eventualy move again. but that patter still lies even after school is over.but it does not have to be that way. I'm older, i'm in charge, i guess old habits die hard. i just hope that my special friend can grin and bear my recent f-upped behavior, i am trying and i do love them more than i have ever anyone else before. That is not just a relationship expected remark, it is the truth. And i now believe that they do love me too.

oh yeah

2004-04-05T23:38:20Z

What will your Funeral be like? by rashock
Username
You will die by:	You died of natural causes. How sweet. Your funeral is an adverage open casket.
Death Date:	February 8, 2066
Number attending your funeral?	41
How much will you leave to friends and family?	$742,337

Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

now you all know that more people will obviously attend MY funeral. and me leaving under a million dollars. mmmm that's the number the gov will see. well you know i have that secret vault in my mansion filled with millions, please! $742,337 ha ha meare change!

powershopper @ 2004-04-05T10:28:00

2004-04-05T14:31:48Z

Choose a band/artist and answer only in song TITLES by that band: Alicia Keys

1 - Are you female or male: mr.man
2 - Describe yourself: the life

3 - How do some people feel about you: how come you don't call me
4 - How do you feel about yourself: caged bird
5 - Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend: wake up
6 - Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend: i never felt this way
7 - Describe where you want your relation shp to be like: diary
8 - Describe where you live: streets of new york
9 - Describe how you love: butterflies
10. Share a few words of wisdom: nobody, not really

i have enclosed the link if you want to read any of the lyrics to the above songs listed.

http://www.lyricattack.com/a/aliciakeyslyrics/

HOW TRUE

2004-04-03T20:15:20Z

Which American City Are You?
created by zen

THIS IS A PRETTYACURATE DESCRIPTION OF ME! DON'T YOU AGREE?

Your Results:
New York
You're competative, you like to take it straight to the fight. You gotta have it all or die trying.

313

2004-04-01T15:13:45Z

so i am pretty sure i will be going out tonight. it will be fun if i do.

i think before i come back to plymouth i will treat my self to a new t shirt. i was in American Eagle and GAP the other night and i saw some nice t's so i think i will have to return while on my lunch break and pick one up, i also have to go back to my house so i can pick up a tank top so that i do not sweat my balls off tonight, and i left my necklace at home and my bracelent. so must do that and i have to check my mail i'm waiting for something :-)

here is a cheesy alteration of some britney spear lyrics

I will shaking my ass at the 313 till early morning
i will have just walked in and it'll be early mornin
Bump bump till the break of dawning
It don't stop till the early morning
I will Pass out on his bed I'm yawning
Just walked in and it's early morning
Bump bump till the break of dawning
It don't stop till the early morning

This Book

2004-03-31T16:12:30Z

Ah the book, well the author, ca we all say together hilarious.oh my, thank you allie for the recommendation once i finish this i will go on to get his other prints......... just let me write a passage from this book so you get an idea of what to look forward to.

"ME TALK PRETTY ONE DAY" by David Sedaris

"hold on to your hat," my father said, "because here's that guitar you've always wanted."

Surely he had me confused with someone else. Although i had regularly petitioned for a brand-new vacuum cleaner,i'd never said anything about wanting a guitar. Nothing about it appealed to me not even on an aesthetics level. I had my room arranged just so, and the instrument did not fit in with my nautical theme. An anchor, yes. A guitar, no. He wanted me to jam, so i jammed it into my closet, where it remained until he signed me up for some private lessons offered at a music shop on the ground floor of the recently opened North Hills Mall. I fought it as best i could and feigned illness even as he dropped me off for my first appointment.

well that is just one passage from this book but it is so funny this man is amazing i can not wait to finish it.so can move on to his others. the best $14.95 i have spent in a long time...........highly recommend you go buy this book.........